2014,
has it been 2 years since this dusty blog has been used?
much has changed i guess.
Like zy has mentioned many times, each of us have a different path in life and times and things do change.
to summarise what has happened so far..
a) YH kinda isloated himself from all of us. *sighs*
b) zy has gotten more emo and is going the YH route as well.
c) Ivan married and fatherhood
d)hx getting married
e) was LX around 2 years ago? meh. ok will and lx going steady
f) me still the same. for better or worse
Feeling quite moody as i write this.
sometimes i wonder why do people change so much? I worry the most abt the emo one. He can't even be optimistic about anything. I mean sure he has his own problems and what not. But don't all of us have too? I mean he might be worse off than some of us but still....
I don't whine about my diabetes all the time right? Even though the medical bills are like +500 bucks per MONTH on my budget. combined with my Iga Nephritis, life can be pretty sucky. Each time i get sick my body system gets just a bit weaker. How long can i last? Iga already affects my kideys and diabetes eventually will too. another maybe 40 years more of life?
But i dont go moping ard emoing in it. Except times like these when i drink alcohol. Ah...the hidden poison we drink to comfort ourselves.
and since i;m being so harsh on myself. It's probably going to be much harder to get a gf. We live in a cruel world. and which girl will want a guy who has so many illnesses?
So when i hear zy emoing over no gf and he might die young (thanks to a fortune teller telling him so) is it no wonder why i feel pissed over his complaints? At least he's healthy...maybe not mentally so with all his brooding. What i would do to have a perfectly healthy body...
ah well life could be worse i guess. At least i still have 2 arms 2 legs etc etc. i tend to appreciate the smaller stuff now, something i believe zy can't do.
Then again it's not like i don't understand what he feels like. There are times...ah nvm.
Sometimes i stare at the sky at night and wonder..what if....
Hope springs eternal i guess. who knows what the future will hold? a new cure. Somehow murphy's law always seems to apply to me. Ah life........
Wednesday, October 24, 2012
REVIVAL!!!!!
And the blog's aliveeeee!!!
welcome to the new revamp insaneloner blog.
actually that's a lie. too lazy to change anything.
much has happened in this last 1 year.
a) GZ's a bloody nit picker.
b) everyone's getting more emo
c) i am getting more apathetic?
a) gz...is a fking guy who likes to quarrel over bloody small things. freaking frog in a well and like a woman having pms. any argument he has to be right. if not he will just nit pick until someone like hx or zy asks the other person to apologise just to avoid all the useless spam by him. Argh.
b) YAU HING has joined the emo club! but after being emoed by zy many months ago, he slipped into seclusion to avoid further emoism. so sad. GZ's now the official emo nit picker
c) after failing yet another chase i find i;m becoming more downcast? heckcare attitude. that's why when gz makes a big fuss i just tell him too bad,shit happens. then he whines abt using my words against me next time, and i am like..ok, not like i care. because i actually really don't care. is this what they call suicidal tendencies?
maybe.
oh well guess i will drift abt in life for now till i find some other purpose again.
emoooooo
Monday, May 02, 2011
... that all is well. What could you not accept, if you but knew that everything that happens, all events, past, present, and to come, are gently planned by One Whose only purpose is your good?
this is just to say i've realised that despite one's best laid plans and expectations, it doesnt neccessary mean that everything will fall into place.
While the pain will always hurt the same, it will eventually fade.
and listening to enya music sooths off the pain while listening to Departure (samurai x piano version) + sadness and sorrow (naruto) and to zanarkland (ffx) brings on the depression.
Life is short, life is unfair and filled with disappointment.
In comparison with my brother, my life is the opposite of his. polar opposites.
He was born health, i was born with a 50% chance to die thanks to a premature birth. He's healthy, I'm not that healthy...love life...LOL. 6? 7 failures in mine, and he's happily married (with his 1st love too) with the MOST ADORABLE daughter!! (my niece can order me to do anything i swear!!)
well screw that lol! I'm going to live my life 1 step @ a time. Be it God, the Devil or what, i don't really give a damn. I'm going to live my life the way i want it..i just wish i wasn't so lonely at times...
Thursday, November 11, 2010
Birthday Parties!
a break from the horrifying experience abt et3000
quote from yh: "wanna watch a horror show? can! ed! go play dota, that will be horrifying enough"
- YH on 5th Nov 2010
tell u, everyone had a good laugh.
any back to the topic. celebrated ZY's HX and My birthday together @ Jurong Pt.
Initially we planned to go orchard. Haiz..but some CHEENA boy went for TKD and kana one of his metatarsal bone. so we all have to accommodate him to JP where we ate some pretty good chinese food. ( see lah told him not to tkd, but does he listen? Nooooo....now become a bai kar bai chu.
i know he wants to become like wolverine, but having parts of u broken so as to have metal inserted into u isn't the right way lah brudder!
anyway so we had this pretty good Chinese food at cant remember the name of the place. was never good with Chinese names after all.
before that ed yh and i were early (on time), the rest were late as usual DUH! (again as usual) so they accompanied me to a toy shop to search for a birthday gift for my darling little niece whose 2nd birthday was soon.
so ed was saying buy her some manly toys like a toy gun , GI Joe figurine and we were like wtf...gender reversal, so next time we told ed his son would be playing with female items.
his reply: ok what...girls like guys to be more feminine.
Fast forward to half way through dinner.
Through a narrow contests, the winning of a contest on who would get hitched next : Pastor Teo by a narrow margin win of 3-2 against Darth Emo!
somehow we were talking abt the *mythbuster fact* if u drop a piece of food on the ground, and it's safe to eat if u grab it up within 3 secs. *BUSTED*
so pastor teo was saying it's ok what. what doesn't kill u will make u stronger. in fact next time if his kid/s drop food on the ground he will let them carry on eating those food. *CM, i think u best talk to ur BF abt err...his kids raising habits*
naturally we told the rest abt ed's....interesting kid raising theory. GZ's reaction: "WTF ED! so next time ur kid would be hugging a barbie toy and shoving it to other kids and saying wanna play with me? DUDE he would be ostracised!" *everyone just broke out laughing*
of course the way its written here isn't as funny, but the way GZ reacted was hilarious.
so next time expect the BC kids to be like this
HX: child leaping and eating anything that drops on the floor.
Emo God: child sitting in some corner spewing purple clouds
Et3000: 4 eye kid playing with barbie toys and asking : "why no one wanna play with me? my daddy says i'm very manly feminine new age boy whatt...."
Overlord: probably a bookworm child reading a book on a chair
Hx spotted a cockroach on the floor like 5m away from our seating and his complain awarded us with a free serving of dessert. EAGLE EYE TEO aka E.E.T.
and to further prove that the stomach always has space for dessert, they forced me to go to swensens to get the free ice cream. of course everyone ordered something else. so it wasnt that cheapo. lol
and beacuse i dun feel like typing anymore i'm not going to lol.
quote from yh: "wanna watch a horror show? can! ed! go play dota, that will be horrifying enough"
- YH on 5th Nov 2010
tell u, everyone had a good laugh.
any back to the topic. celebrated ZY's HX and My birthday together @ Jurong Pt.
Initially we planned to go orchard. Haiz..but some CHEENA boy went for TKD and kana one of his metatarsal bone. so we all have to accommodate him to JP where we ate some pretty good chinese food. ( see lah told him not to tkd, but does he listen? Nooooo....now become a bai kar bai chu.
i know he wants to become like wolverine, but having parts of u broken so as to have metal inserted into u isn't the right way lah brudder!
anyway so we had this pretty good Chinese food at cant remember the name of the place. was never good with Chinese names after all.
before that ed yh and i were early (on time), the rest were late as usual DUH! (again as usual) so they accompanied me to a toy shop to search for a birthday gift for my darling little niece whose 2nd birthday was soon.
so ed was saying buy her some manly toys like a toy gun , GI Joe figurine and we were like wtf...gender reversal, so next time we told ed his son would be playing with female items.
his reply: ok what...girls like guys to be more feminine.
Fast forward to half way through dinner.
Through a narrow contests, the winning of a contest on who would get hitched next : Pastor Teo by a narrow margin win of 3-2 against Darth Emo!
somehow we were talking abt the *mythbuster fact* if u drop a piece of food on the ground, and it's safe to eat if u grab it up within 3 secs. *BUSTED*
so pastor teo was saying it's ok what. what doesn't kill u will make u stronger. in fact next time if his kid/s drop food on the ground he will let them carry on eating those food. *CM, i think u best talk to ur BF abt err...his kids raising habits*
naturally we told the rest abt ed's....interesting kid raising theory. GZ's reaction: "WTF ED! so next time ur kid would be hugging a barbie toy and shoving it to other kids and saying wanna play with me? DUDE he would be ostracised!" *everyone just broke out laughing*
of course the way its written here isn't as funny, but the way GZ reacted was hilarious.
so next time expect the BC kids to be like this
HX: child leaping and eating anything that drops on the floor.
Emo God: child sitting in some corner spewing purple clouds
Et3000: 4 eye kid playing with barbie toys and asking : "why no one wanna play with me? my daddy says i'm very manly feminine new age boy whatt...."
Overlord: probably a bookworm child reading a book on a chair
Hx spotted a cockroach on the floor like 5m away from our seating and his complain awarded us with a free serving of dessert. EAGLE EYE TEO aka E.E.T.
and to further prove that the stomach always has space for dessert, they forced me to go to swensens to get the free ice cream. of course everyone ordered something else. so it wasnt that cheapo. lol
and beacuse i dun feel like typing anymore i'm not going to lol.
Thursday, November 04, 2010
The Return of the Dreaded ET3000! part 1
blogging day since i'm on leave.
i know this is like super overdue but it HAS HAPPENED!!!
THE DREADED ET3000 HAS RETURNED TO DOTA. (as of sept 2010). hey i did mention this was an overdue updating session right?
the agony...the pain....my eyes!! the emoism...the pure undiluted amt of noobness.
of course we alrdy have seen the worse of et3000 :
The epic legendary case of him killing roshan with ursa and leaving the aegis + cheese behind for the enemies to take. *silently cries over the memory, sometimes the nightmare of that incident still causes purple emo clouds to appear over at Jurong East + several of the BC pple still wake up screaming after dreaming of that time.
Of course ed's not that bad now....he's worse....i mean that was the worst incident. but on a score of 100, his average skills has dropped from 0 to...-15 or so
DOTA CAMP FIRE HORROR STORIES:
sit aroundd laddies and hear this tale from the this battle scarred veteran who has faced horrors beyond imagining, eddism and emoism both
so u know sonny, ya i was the tormented soul u know? the little stag human hero with the aoe stun. so yaaa i was invisible and there was the legendary the one and only NOOBLORD! et3000 as my teammate earthshaker. so u know i pinged for et3000 to stun 2 enemies at the top lane. i mean how bad could it be right? ES's stun is aoe + can block and it was the section just after the river at top, narrow, confined no escape! i'm sure he could stun at least one + me stun and spam.. gurantee + chop 1 kill right?
*nods of ya from the younglings!*
behold! his stun...TOTALLY MISSED! *gasps of horror from the young nooblings and newbs + cries of " it cannot be!!!"
aye it is true!. not only did he missed, he blocked me. + he gave an escape path for the enemy to run away by the side forest path. i tell u..it was stunning! (pun intened), so stunning that it made even me forget to stun for 2secs. the world spun ard me that night...i was in shock!
*Dramatic sigh* it was a dark and evil day i tell u young ones. not only that he blinked in and ulti...1 HERO! +4 of us behind him numerous times. i lost many friends that day...the images of the noob lord in the flesh haunted them.drove them insane!! the only solution was to become devotees of the emo god.
let us bow our heads fr a moment of silence for their sacrifice. HAHAHHAHAHA
REMEMBER if u see et3000 on ur team. FLEE!! run unless u wnt to become his subject forevermore. even now this cloud of darkness is spreading his evil. Once confined to rooms 40 and beyond now he has spread to rooms 20-30s. nooblings now run rampant in these rooms. a jug with no boots, omnis with 4 mobs ard rushes into towers, a lion who doesnt know how to stun, a pitlord that doesnt learn his trap.
THE END IS NEAR!!
let us pray to the Emo God, et3000's sworn nemesis for deliverance!
ok it's not much of a choice, damn if u do and damn if u don't. emoism vs eddism...EMOISM ANYDaY ANYTIME!!
(an extract from the 2010 dota camp fire horror stories)
but i kid u not...those really were ed's actions.
i know this is like super overdue but it HAS HAPPENED!!!
THE DREADED ET3000 HAS RETURNED TO DOTA. (as of sept 2010). hey i did mention this was an overdue updating session right?
the agony...the pain....my eyes!! the emoism...the pure undiluted amt of noobness.
of course we alrdy have seen the worse of et3000 :
The epic legendary case of him killing roshan with ursa and leaving the aegis + cheese behind for the enemies to take. *silently cries over the memory, sometimes the nightmare of that incident still causes purple emo clouds to appear over at Jurong East + several of the BC pple still wake up screaming after dreaming of that time.
Of course ed's not that bad now....he's worse....i mean that was the worst incident. but on a score of 100, his average skills has dropped from 0 to...-15 or so
DOTA CAMP FIRE HORROR STORIES:
sit aroundd laddies and hear this tale from the this battle scarred veteran who has faced horrors beyond imagining, eddism and emoism both
so u know sonny, ya i was the tormented soul u know? the little stag human hero with the aoe stun. so yaaa i was invisible and there was the legendary the one and only NOOBLORD! et3000 as my teammate earthshaker. so u know i pinged for et3000 to stun 2 enemies at the top lane. i mean how bad could it be right? ES's stun is aoe + can block and it was the section just after the river at top, narrow, confined no escape! i'm sure he could stun at least one + me stun and spam.. gurantee + chop 1 kill right?
*nods of ya from the younglings!*
behold! his stun...TOTALLY MISSED! *gasps of horror from the young nooblings and newbs + cries of " it cannot be!!!"
aye it is true!. not only did he missed, he blocked me. + he gave an escape path for the enemy to run away by the side forest path. i tell u..it was stunning! (pun intened), so stunning that it made even me forget to stun for 2secs. the world spun ard me that night...i was in shock!
*Dramatic sigh* it was a dark and evil day i tell u young ones. not only that he blinked in and ulti...1 HERO! +4 of us behind him numerous times. i lost many friends that day...the images of the noob lord in the flesh haunted them.drove them insane!! the only solution was to become devotees of the emo god.
let us bow our heads fr a moment of silence for their sacrifice. HAHAHHAHAHA
REMEMBER if u see et3000 on ur team. FLEE!! run unless u wnt to become his subject forevermore. even now this cloud of darkness is spreading his evil. Once confined to rooms 40 and beyond now he has spread to rooms 20-30s. nooblings now run rampant in these rooms. a jug with no boots, omnis with 4 mobs ard rushes into towers, a lion who doesnt know how to stun, a pitlord that doesnt learn his trap.
THE END IS NEAR!!
let us pray to the Emo God, et3000's sworn nemesis for deliverance!
ok it's not much of a choice, damn if u do and damn if u don't. emoism vs eddism...EMOISM ANYDaY ANYTIME!!
(an extract from the 2010 dota camp fire horror stories)
but i kid u not...those really were ed's actions.
Richard and Katherine's Visit to Singapore: 17th Sept 2010
Ta da! retirement break over. so let's 1st describe my outing with the one and only...*drum roll*
Mr Richard...(checks facebook for the exact spelling of his surname) Kidarsa!
haha anyway Rich dropped by Singapore for just a few hours on 17th Sept 2010 and i arranged to meet him at Ion since i was on leave that day.
LOL i thought i posted on facebook to inform pple of his coming haha but instead it was actually on richard's wall that we discussed the meetup.
Richard still looks the same. maybe more rugged a bit and FATTER!!! haha..and he came with his wife! wohoo! met Mrs Katherine kidarsa for the 1st time.
As a friend: I am so happy for Richard. Katherine is pretty , friendly from what i can tell and richard is happy with her! wohoo!
As the Emo Overlord of the Sinster BACHELOR'S CLUB: ARRGGGHHH! the WIFE!! *flees b4 this ultimate club traitor lol* + their ultimate weapon: the wedding rings!! *spontaneous combustion at the sight of 2 rings* like sprinkling holy water on a vampire. *burst into bats and flees*
lol but jokes asides, saw Richie and Katherine both wearing their wedding rings. looks good!
so we had a brief meetup for abt 2.5hrs or so before they had to go off to the airport again for richard to fly back to the US to finish his studies.
Managed to extract a promise from him that asked him to come back to SG soon and for a longer stay. fun day it was. (some pple didnt buy me a birthday gift that day lol! even though my birthday was just on the 18th) saaaadddd..... LOL
Presenting to youuuu. : Richard and Katherine
Richard and the Alpha Emo Overlord.
Mr Richard...(checks facebook for the exact spelling of his surname) Kidarsa!
haha anyway Rich dropped by Singapore for just a few hours on 17th Sept 2010 and i arranged to meet him at Ion since i was on leave that day.
LOL i thought i posted on facebook to inform pple of his coming haha but instead it was actually on richard's wall that we discussed the meetup.
Richard still looks the same. maybe more rugged a bit and FATTER!!! haha..and he came with his wife! wohoo! met Mrs Katherine kidarsa for the 1st time.
As a friend: I am so happy for Richard. Katherine is pretty , friendly from what i can tell and richard is happy with her! wohoo!
As the Emo Overlord of the Sinster BACHELOR'S CLUB: ARRGGGHHH! the WIFE!! *flees b4 this ultimate club traitor lol* + their ultimate weapon: the wedding rings!! *spontaneous combustion at the sight of 2 rings* like sprinkling holy water on a vampire. *burst into bats and flees*
lol but jokes asides, saw Richie and Katherine both wearing their wedding rings. looks good!
so we had a brief meetup for abt 2.5hrs or so before they had to go off to the airport again for richard to fly back to the US to finish his studies.
Managed to extract a promise from him that asked him to come back to SG soon and for a longer stay. fun day it was. (some pple didnt buy me a birthday gift that day lol! even though my birthday was just on the 18th) saaaadddd..... LOL
Presenting to youuuu. : Richard and Katherine
Richard and the Alpha Emo Overlord.
Wednesday, September 22, 2010
so i wanted to blog abt my birthday month
but since today i'm in pretty bad shape aka my whole nose is blocked today. going to prob see a doc later.
+i've a persistent cough + a 2k word essay due in 12hrs time. + i've slept less than 8hrs in 2 days. and prob going to gonk out at 5am today lol. make that 10hrs sleep in 3 days. buggery. bah bah bah
i need niece therapy. hug my niece!!!
but hang on faithful readers! i will blog more soon.
but since today i'm in pretty bad shape aka my whole nose is blocked today. going to prob see a doc later.
+i've a persistent cough + a 2k word essay due in 12hrs time. + i've slept less than 8hrs in 2 days. and prob going to gonk out at 5am today lol. make that 10hrs sleep in 3 days. buggery. bah bah bah
i need niece therapy. hug my niece!!!
but hang on faithful readers! i will blog more soon.
Wednesday, August 18, 2010
of course dear mr yyh is right. but u know sometimes i just need to rant and rave to let off the steam. oh well a leave on monday cured most depressions.
I"M ALL PUMPED UP...( posted on tuesday) was pumped up (all it took was 1 day of continous bad news)..now deflated again.
how come when i've planned the schedule so perfectly shit happens?
10 pple - Check not. 9 pple still ok
acutal day -
1 person got job interview: - ok. still got 8 pple no problemo
1 person not feeling well - ok.... 7..a bit worried but still shld be ok
1 person - suddenly change of YOG schedule - can't come on that day...wtf!! 6 pple suddenly.
recipe for disaster. hallelujah.
btw i found i love watching romantic comedies lol. just watched this awesome korean romantic comedy show "Accidental Couple" or dun knwo why it's also called "The Fool".
not only is the heroine hot, the storyline is *sniff sniff* so nice. oh well guess i've a softspot for such shows.
latest updates in my life for the last few months:
a) i bought a PS3 (super long overdue never revealed post but which all my friends know abt it)
b) I'm involved in the Alive Gallery (AG) held at downtown east from 2nd July - 3rd Oct (super long overdue post again but which everyone knows due to my constant whinning)
c) I, the great victor, have discovered whenever he says: "what else can go wrong?' or "nothing will go wrong" the opposite will usually be proven otherwise 99.9999999999% of the time.
now the IC in charge said we had to talk over msn = prob more bad news. prob over a new staff who's been there for 4 days. bummmmerrrrr
I really need some good news in my life now. Sighs...........*goes into emo mode*
what i want to do is just go to some jap restaurent, order a bottle or 2 of sake, and enjoy a quiet moment eating sushi or sashimi or some food.
flaw in the plan: unless u go to those really posh stalls which the prices are freaking high = few customers, most places i know in SG are / will be totally crowded. and posh places doesnt mean = no crowd. so scratch out that quiet moment thingy.
come to think abt it, i've never ever been drunk b4. High yes but drunk no. and omg..my blog has been ard 2x longer than yh but he has almost 2x the number of posts i've. OH THE SHAME....
btw yh, why did u link that post of india/pakistan virus to my blog? u thought of me when seeing that? lol. i remind YH of a virus? *gasp!!* shocked! *emo emo* oh wait i'm alryd emo...*emoer emoer*
I"M ALL PUMPED UP...( posted on tuesday) was pumped up (all it took was 1 day of continous bad news)..now deflated again.
how come when i've planned the schedule so perfectly shit happens?
10 pple - Check not. 9 pple still ok
acutal day -
1 person got job interview: - ok. still got 8 pple no problemo
1 person not feeling well - ok.... 7..a bit worried but still shld be ok
1 person - suddenly change of YOG schedule - can't come on that day...wtf!! 6 pple suddenly.
recipe for disaster. hallelujah.
btw i found i love watching romantic comedies lol. just watched this awesome korean romantic comedy show "Accidental Couple" or dun knwo why it's also called "The Fool".
not only is the heroine hot, the storyline is *sniff sniff* so nice. oh well guess i've a softspot for such shows.
latest updates in my life for the last few months:
a) i bought a PS3 (super long overdue never revealed post but which all my friends know abt it)
b) I'm involved in the Alive Gallery (AG) held at downtown east from 2nd July - 3rd Oct (super long overdue post again but which everyone knows due to my constant whinning)
c) I, the great victor, have discovered whenever he says: "what else can go wrong?' or "nothing will go wrong" the opposite will usually be proven otherwise 99.9999999999% of the time.
now the IC in charge said we had to talk over msn = prob more bad news. prob over a new staff who's been there for 4 days. bummmmerrrrr
I really need some good news in my life now. Sighs...........*goes into emo mode*
what i want to do is just go to some jap restaurent, order a bottle or 2 of sake, and enjoy a quiet moment eating sushi or sashimi or some food.
flaw in the plan: unless u go to those really posh stalls which the prices are freaking high = few customers, most places i know in SG are / will be totally crowded. and posh places doesnt mean = no crowd. so scratch out that quiet moment thingy.
come to think abt it, i've never ever been drunk b4. High yes but drunk no. and omg..my blog has been ard 2x longer than yh but he has almost 2x the number of posts i've. OH THE SHAME....
btw yh, why did u link that post of india/pakistan virus to my blog? u thought of me when seeing that? lol. i remind YH of a virus? *gasp!!* shocked! *emo emo* oh wait i'm alryd emo...*emoer emoer*
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