2014,

has it been 2 years since this dusty blog has been used?

much has changed i guess.

Like zy has mentioned many times, each of us have a different path in life and times and things do change.

to summarise what has happened so far..

a) YH kinda isloated himself from all of us. *sighs*
b) zy has gotten more emo and is going the YH route as well.
c) Ivan married and fatherhood
d)hx getting married
e) was LX around 2 years ago? meh. ok will and lx going steady
f) me still the same. for better or worse

Feeling quite moody as i write this.
sometimes i wonder why do people change so much? I worry the most abt the emo one. He can't even be optimistic about anything. I mean sure he has his own problems and what not. But don't all of us have too? I mean he might be worse off than some of us but still....

I don't whine about my diabetes all the time right? Even though the medical bills are like +500 bucks per MONTH on my budget. combined with my Iga Nephritis, life can be pretty sucky. Each time i get sick my body system gets just a bit weaker. How long can i last? Iga already affects my kideys and diabetes eventually will too. another maybe 40 years more of life?

But i dont go moping ard emoing in it. Except times like these when i drink alcohol. Ah...the hidden poison we drink to comfort ourselves.

and since i;m being so harsh on myself. It's probably going to be much harder to get a gf. We live in a cruel world. and which girl will want a guy who has so many illnesses?

So when i hear zy emoing over no gf and he might die young (thanks to a fortune teller telling him so) is it no wonder why i feel pissed over his complaints? At least he's healthy...maybe not mentally so with all his brooding.  What i would do to have a perfectly healthy body...

ah well life could be worse i guess. At least i still have 2 arms 2 legs etc etc. i tend to appreciate the smaller stuff now, something i believe zy can't do.

Then again it's not like i don't understand what he feels like. There are times...ah nvm.

Sometimes i stare at the sky at night and wonder..what if....

Hope springs eternal i guess. who knows what the future will hold? a new cure. Somehow murphy's law always seems to apply to me. Ah life........