*blink blink*

wow...woke up at 11 today. didn't know i could sleep past 10,30. usually my natural body clock would wake at 930...okok 10 latest? 1/2 hr is for juz trying to start the spark which i call a brain.

now i am that i'm more refreshed from yesterday, might as well describe more abt the night. It's interesting in the way that the music flows ard u. closed my eyes, felt every beat and sound wave ard me. initially wasn't really used to the noise. but after the free vodka lime, things seem pretty cool. not bad for a 1st time experience. *still thinks of the babes there* hahahaha...*evil smile*

ah...righty then back today. nothing much today. juz preparing for GP exam on thurs. anyway yes.i'm retaking it and only it. why? juz so i can prove i can get higher marks. sheesh...vanity, pride... Did an essay for my mom to mark. my writing's pretty slow compared to last time. only managed 2.5 sides. MAN! WAT HAPPENED TO THE SKILLS FROM LIT AND HISTORY????!!!

my pimples are surfacing again.juz when i thought almost all had vanished. must be the alcohol and lack of sleep. haha. wouldn't get much time to heal with the duties pouring in this wk. sheesh.

argh! why must the weekends be so short? back to work again! *bleh*
*sings* 'to shred to shred we go!* feel so tempted to set a fire in my office and burn all the documents. Sure will save tons of time and effort. but...too bad can't...sigh...

Clubbing

not a bad night at all. despite the fact we had to wait for ivan like 2.5 hrs b4 he came...sigh...normally i would be pissed and i was for a while but since the night or morning turned out ok, all's forgiven. haha.

went in abt 11 after all the waiting. haha...ed threw away his receipt &couldn't get his free drink. Fed up with us laughing at him, he somehow managed to retreive it at the dustbin. i gathered he threw in in the ash tray and luckily enuff no one swiped it.

music was pretty good i guess...not much of a good judge anyway. and boy! there were lots of pretty babes! there was this cute one in a holloween costume with a mask covering her eyes. Pretty hot.

Besides talking abt my over active hormones, drank vodka lime and a cup of beer. Sigh...ed and ivan sure become high. ok ivan become dizzy, and ed.....slightly drunk? haha...no tolerance at all Me? juz felt my face turned hot and my eyes were slightly blood shot.

Nothing much happened, juz danced until 2.30am or so. Saw a few really tipsy pple that night. One even collapsed juz 2m away from me. *bong* luckily her friends were ard. Then a stupid smoker's cigarette's butt burnt my skin. CB...even heard her complaining abt how the cig. was extinguished....ya lah, cig extinguished big deal lah! slightly burnt flesh no big deal...

phew! still stink of smoke. advice for getting rid possible hangovers from my cousin who's a regular clubber: 2 panadols and 1 big big glass of water b4 u go to sleep.

somehow don;t feek liking sleeping. think too used to guard duty liao. usually i'm awake at this particular shift. haha. or is it the 12-3 shift? nvm. Nights pple!

Shiok!

Great wkend this wk. hardly get to enjoy my 5 day working wks. feels good to sleep more than 6 hrs on a wkend now. it reminds me to enjoy the simple pleasures of life more often. *yummy, this apple is great, super sweet* haha.

i'm enjoying the apple, i'm enjoying the cool weather, the wind blowing through the house, the music on my winamp.

Don't even know why i'm blogging even though i got nothing to say...oh well must be feeling super sian. haha.

Going clubbing at China black later with the gang. hehe...it would be an interesting experience i must say, 1st time clubbing. Let's hope i dun get drunk and punch someone. haha...it would be hilarious. at least going home would be easy, juz take 75.

This is how life should be like once in a while. no stress, hanging out with good old friends and enjoying yourself without a care in the world. The simple pleasures in life. too bad such pleasures come so rarely.

Truly Unlucky?

man....super super unlucky! 1st thing in the morning and the door is spoilt!!! main door of the office somemore...then my OA account lock out...send out slightly wrong daily ops. is it too much to take 1/2 a day off? huh? huh? Answer me!!!

think i need more sweets! losing control!!! argh! then again...on a + side, managed to avoid duty today! on the other side..received my nxt month's forecast too.

charlie charlie bravo (CCB) *most pple shld know wat it stands for*

another 6, 3 wk end, 1 on hari raya prussa...f*ck! there goes my super long wkend....why?? that really snapped my morale for the day. sheesh..enuff self pitying and foolishness. still got abt 600 more documents to record by dec. *gulps*

Hope falters...despair sinks in.

Angels & Demons

angels and demons....something we all have inside of us. angel= honour, good will etc etc
demons= anger, fear, destruction etc etc

lately the beast in me seems to be growing..anger is swift to come..juz feel like destroying something...someone...anything. i've become bleaker too i noticed.

guess army life..even the puny time i spend in camp is corrupting me.. bit by bit, day by day a little small part of me dies away. i'm sure my friends will find it unusual for me to swear so much these days...haha. oh well...what will i become in the future? hmm....

btw...haha! finally completed my 40th guard duty last week! at least there are enuff NS reservists for me to avoid my next 3 duties this month. phew! hmm..i'm bored. maybe will try figuring out how to play ard with this blog site soon. ciao

Anger

anger management

1.do you have a quick temper? not really

2.what do you do when you're mad? curse swear, keep it tightly controlled b4 i really really really lose control. eyes feel like they are slits.

3.what's the worst thing you've done when you were mad? punch a jerk in pri 2 during break time.

4.if you can take back time, would you have done this still? nah. he deserved it. NO REMORSE.

5. ever made anyone cry when you were mad? haha...yes

6.ever physically hurt someone when you were mad? see ans 3.

7.do you curse when you're mad?: duh! of course.

8.when was the last time you really cried your heart out? *scratches head*...in primary sch?

9.ever cried yourself to sleep? ya

.10. ever cried on your friend's shoulder? nope

11. ever cried over the opposite sex? once and only once

12.do you cry when you get an injury? nope, juz curse out aloud.

13.do certain songs make you cry? oh pls....of course not

14. can you make yourself cry? nvm tried it

5.what's the hardest thing you've ever had to go through? living through unrealistic expectations put forth by others.

16.what's the worst thing you've done to yourself? dun ask

17.what's the worst thing you've done to somebody else? nothing much

18.how depressed can you get? extremely. suicide type. but that lasts last than 10 mins. but still...

19.do you inflict pain on yourself? mentally.

20. are you normally a happy person? i suppose i act like one.

21. what can make you happy? a moment of utter peace. *watching the stars on a windy nite w/o any man made noises.

22. do you wish you were happier? not really.

23. what makes you the happiest? being with friends/ relatives w/o any worries or ans 21.

24. is being happy overrated? no.

25. what about being with your friends, does that make you happy? yes

26. can music make you happy? no. moody yes, happy no.

27.have you ever loved someone so much, that you'd die for them? not yet.

28.did you ever love a person, tell them that, and only got 'thanks' as a reply? sheesh...no

29. ever loved someone so much, it hurt and made you cry? nah

30. has anyone besides your friends and family ever said 'i love you' ? i wish!

31.who do you actually hate? juz 2 pple only.

32.ever made a hate list? nah

33.have you ever been on a hate list? i will never know.

34. are you a mean bully? thinks of most of the gals i know....*probably*

35.do you hate any one that breaks your heart? wat's the pt of that?

36. do you hate George Bush?: nope

hmm...

1st blog on this site even though i set it up eons ago.
now if i can juz figure out how to use this blog properly...