life goes on..

well..last update was during that period of xmas. sigh...was life a total mess during that period. Still remember clinching my teeth so hard to contain the grief that i could've sworn i was going to break them into pieces. The worst was seeing how my family members were affected by this personal tragedy. Even now there is a hollow empty feeling inside of me. Sithspawn! Then again i guess the relatvies of the victims of the tsunami are feeling the same..if not worst. probably worst.

The only consolation was that he died painlessly, lived a happy life and enjoyed himself in a way many wished they would be able to. You taught me much, much of what i am is thanks to you. You will be missed.

A most bitter & cruel Xmas

at 1st i wanted to write abt this...then again i found out it's far too fucking confidential. or whether the hurt is still too fresh and painful. Needless to say, my xmasn, or rather, the whole Cheong family's xmas has been ruined, all due to the bloody cruel hand of fate. Damm it. Damm everything, everyone, the gods too. Sigh..

oh bummer...

juz realised i'm a little bit back in sending out xmas letters...oops...me bad. at least i've juz bought the cards rite? wouldn't bother sending it to the gang...knowing them they will probably juz toss it aside. *blah...wasting good money for nothing. haha*

i'm a bit stumped on wat to get my nephew for xmas gift. micky i know i will at least get her a nice little soft bear. but luke? If i give him something with small pieces..most likely he will choke on them. Argh!!!! how? somebody pls help! Damm!

argh! regret!

didn't go my gramps house today & a) missed out on the babies again!!! 2) missed out on all the good food!!! *heard there was fried chicken today...sniff* damm!!!

all because i was too lazy to go. wanted to rest at home! *moans* heard micky was a weapon of mass destruction. went berserk with a lipstick and messed up the house and appiled it on various relatives too...tsk tsk. little kids...so much trouble. ARGH! oh well..nvm can see them on christmas again. and damm again. haven't sent out the cards yet...oh bummer. anyway here's a pic of luke sleeping from last time. so cute!

f*cked up

well....forced to do duty again..because all my other personnel who are 'supposed' to do have pulled stunts again. ok lah..only 2 pulled stunts. the other has a legitimate excuse - compassionate leave. the other 2? 1 excused duties 1 month (envious...) the other bastard? as usual didn't turn up...probably get MC. also heard from his friends he getting another MC on monday too...f*cked! same day i'm doing duty again..

I am so sick of doing pple's shit for them. They pull stunts and nothing happens and i'm the one suffering their bloody excuses. CB! now i'm going to miss the Lakers vs the Kings on NBA today. bloody hell. feel like killing someone...fuck!

*yes yes...i know... that's quite a few vulgarites in here. but it kind of shows how pissed off i am at the whole *insert vulgarity* system here.*

Family Day!

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okok so i'm not so good at posting multiple pics at once. anyway spent the day at my gramps house. Luke and micky (micheala) pronouned as (mi ke la) were there! beautiful next generation of the neo/cheong family bloodline. juz rocked playing with them! even though the gal had almost endless energy. ran my house exhausted stopping her from climbing the steps and trying to run out of the house.
below are also the various pics of my cousins and grandma.

Then my cousins and i went to buy ice cream and recalled all the great days we had 10 years ago when we walked down that same path! *kicking tiger beer bottles, playing badminton etc & buying stuff* Totally felt relaxed! days like these are so very very rare...

Blind Bat & Niece

It's so hard to get her attention! 1 min attention span only! and yes i look terrible in this photo!

9kg Monster!

yup, he's only 9 months old but weights 9kg that's like 2 bags of rice! The little meatball..haha!

YiYu & Claire!

Yup my two...'beautiful' cousins. haha..always get wrecked by them for saying that.

Andy & Claire

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keke...claire had a sun burnt. funny hearing aunt angie saying in those humourous tone : ' she thought it was the trend to get sun tan but wat happens? got sun burnt instead.' btw, andy is a person i trust above all others even above boyan. He's in NDU (naval diving unit)! Respect! but heck he's a jolly good guy. Drives too! haha!

Devourer of water melons!

think she ate like 6 pieces of it!
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Tina & daughter

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Ah Mah & Baby Luke

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Again!

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babies 

farewell dinner at mess

the final dinner of 1 PDF.. pretty joyous event despite the parting of many friends. The tiger gals were pretty but hey...they smoke. so too bad. woudn't mention the fatique work involved anyway.

haha...had pretty good drink with my friends in camp. eric tried to get me drunk and failed. but damm..he came pretty close. of course mistaking a cup of brandy for beer and gulping it down was definitely not wise too.

i would miss the G1 br pple. most would be scattered here and there. no doubt we would lose contact in the end. quite sad actually. These are pple i've trusted and worked with for the last 10 months. Good thing we had a good drink that night. I have no regrets even though we stayed up until 1 am. Sigh...

again.

took this off sissy jupe's page. sheesh do girls have lots of spare time or wat? then again wat am i doing this anyway? oh heck!

Have You--
[Kissed your cousin:] nah
[Ran away:] maybe?
[Seen your crush naked:] i wish!
[Broken someone's heart:] as if i had anyone in the 1st place...
[Wanted someone you knew you couldn't have:] probably
[Broken a bone:] teeth counted?
[Drank alcohol:] who hasn't?
[Lied:] professional liar here

Which Is Better--
[Coke or Pepsi:] anyway can
[Sprite or 7-Up:] sprite
[Girls or Guys:] neither
[Flowers or Candy:] give me candy/sweets anytime anyday
[Quiet or Loud:] BLAM!
[Blondes or Brunettes:] brunettes
[Nice or Playas:] nice.
[Tall or Short:] not sure leh...
[Pants or Shorts:] pants

--What Is--
[Your Good Luck Charm:] dun have one

[The Best Thing That Has Happened To You:] alot of best things has happened :)

--Favorite--

[Color:] blue
[Subject In School:] literature!
[Juice:] grape
[Cars:] ferrari
Ice Cream:] rum and raisin
[Holiday:] dec...
.[Season:] WINTER COLDNESS
Breakfast Food: bacon!-

-Who--
[Makes You Laugh The Most:] boyan
[Makes you smile:] my friends
[Gives You A Funny Feeling When You See Them:] a lot of pple. sone friends with their wracky attitudes. haha.
[Has A Crush On You:] *still in bachelor's club*
[Do You Have A Crush On:] *secret*
[Can Make You Feel Better No Matter What:] boyan/ the gang isn't that what best friends are for?
[Easier To Talk To, Guys Or Girls:] guys. we are err...cruder. more direct.

-Do You Ever--
[Sit By The Phone Waiting For A Phone Call All Night:] nope
[Save AOL Conversations:] it's like auto right?
[Save E-Mails:] some to save me from backstabbers in camp.
[Wish You Were Someone Else:] nah. i'm happy with whom i am. of course i wish i was taller etc etc
[Wish You Were A Member Of The Opposite Sex:] dun think so
[Cried Because Of Someone's Mean Words:] nope. very thick skin here.

--Best--[Cologne:] err....
[Perfume:] *blinks* perfume?
Most Recent Advice Given To You:] in camp. 'victor, dun stand right in the middle of the road.'

Who Was The Last Person--

[You Touched?:] i think i was smacking ed's head.
[You Talked To?:] my mum
[You Hugged?:] camp friends who are posting out next wk.
[You Instant Messaged?:] ivan? asking where the hell he was.
[You Yelled At?:] the gang. for being late...again...
[You Laughed With?:] the gang

Do You--[Color Your Hair?:] nope. camo paint counted?
Have Tattoos?:] nah
[Have Piercings?:] no thanks
.[Own A Webcam?:] nope

--Have You/Do You/Are You--[Stolen Anything?:] ya, way way back when i was 6. juz unknowingly walked out of a stall with a garfield comic book. haha!
[Smoke?:] hell no.
[Obsessive?:] perhapes
[Compulsive?:]certain stuff
[Panic?:] oh yes! that's the way of life in camp!
[Anxiety?:] read above
[Depressed?:] very. (wah! another 8 more duties??!!!!)
[Suicidal?:] yes. but they wore off after a few hrs.
[Obsessed With Hate?:] yes. i'm still hating that jerk.
[Dream Of Mutilated Bodies, Blood, Gore?:] not that i can remember.

--Random Questions--
[If You Could Be Anywhere, Where Would You Be?:] switz
[Can You Do Anything Freakish With Your Body?:] yup
[What Facial Feature Do You Find The Most Attractive on the opposite sex?:] *censored* haha!
[Would You Ever Vote For A Woman Candidate For President?:] suppose so
[Would You Marry For Money?:] oh boy! err...for billions? haha! no lah!
[Have You Had Braces?:] juz took out mine!
[Do You Like Hairy Backs?:] no!
[Could You Live Without A Computer?:] yup
[Do You Use ICQ, AOL Buddy List Etc...?:] msn
[If So, How Many People Are On Your List(S)?:] 52
[Do You Wear White Socks?:] make that green!
[Do You Wear Shoes In The House Or Take Them Off?:] off!!!
[What Is Your Favorite Fruit?:]apples!
[Do You Eat Wheat Bread Or White?:] wheat
[What Is Your Favorite Place To Visit:] switzerland
~[What Is The Last Movie You Saw?:] The Polar Express
[Are You Photogenic?:] no!
[Do You Dream In Color Or Black And White?:] colour
[Are You Wearing Fingernail Polish?:]i'm a guy! so no!
[Do You Have Any Dimples] small ones
[Do You Remember Being Born?:] nope
[Do You Drink Alcohol?:] yup! juz yesterday!
[Did You Like Or Do You Like High School?:] guess i did.
[What Is The Best Accent?:] the english.
[Who Do You Want To Kiss?:] MANY! haha....sound like ed now.
[Do You Like Sunrises Or Sunsets The Most?:] sunsets. dun think i can wake up early enuff for sunrise.
[Do You Want To Live To Be 100?:] 85 is good enough
[Is A Flat Stomach Important To You?:] to attract the babes man!~
[Are You Loyal?:] 100% to those who matter to me.
[When You Watch Movies At Home, Do You Like The Lights On Or Off?:] doesn't make a diff
[Do You Like Your Nose?:] if only it was a bit sharper
[Do You Think You Can Draw Well?:] 'victor...is this a fish or a submarine?' - art teacher in sec 2
[How Many Pairs Of Shoes Do Have In Your Closet: 5( including 2 army boots)
Do You Wear The Same Shoes Everyday?:] dun really have a choice in camp....
[Do You Write Poetry?:] nah
[Do You Snore?:] at time yes.
[Do You Sleep More On Your Back, Front, Or Sides?:] shld be sides[Dog/Cat?:]cats!
[Do You Lick Stamps?:] nope.
[Do You Use An Electric Can Opener?:] there's one?
[Have You Ridden In A Hot air Balloon?:] almost rode one...but weather was bad in NZ.
[Which Hurts The Most, Physical Or Emotional Pain?:] emotional.
[Favorite TV Show?:] nba counts?
[Do You Know Anyone Who Is Clinically Depressed?:] nope
[Do You Prefer A Piano Or A Violin?:] hmmm i can't play neither so no real preference
[Are You A Sex Addict?:] haha....no!
.[Do You Know Someone Who Has Cancer?:] several
.[Do You Like To Argue?:] not really
[Do You Hunt?:] for certain items. yes
[Would You Rather Visit A Zoo Or An Art Museum?]: art museum
[Are You Basically A Happy Person?:] i guess so even though there are storms frequently
[Are You Tired?:] a bit
[Did You Drink Anything With Caffeine In It Today?:] nope.
[Have You Ever Met Anyone Off The Internet?:] nah
[How Many Phones Do You Have In Your House?:] 3
[Do You Get Along With Your Parents?:] yes..sometimes
[What Color Of Eyes Do You Prefer?:] blue?
[Do You Like Your Name?:] ya! haha. wat's in a name?
[Were You Named After Anyone?:] sheesh dun think so
[Do You Wish On Stars?:] nope
[Do Looks Matter?:]for initial impressions only
[Do You Think There Is A Pot Of Gold At The End Of The Rainbow?:] want me to explain the illusions of rainbows in detail?
[How Do You Release Anger?:] a) curse & swear b) get really physical with anything! c) compressed and smother it inside the heart.
[Do You Trust Others Easily?:] yes

[[Do You Use Sarcasm A Lot?:] me? of course not! *lying through my teeth here*
[Have You Ever Been In Another Country?:] yeah
[What Is Your Nickname?:] vic, vicks, vicky, vicki,
[Would You Bungee Jump?:] yes!
[Do You Untie Your Shoes Every Time You Take Them Off?:] ya
[What Are You Worried About Right Now?:] secret. when i succeed i will tell u.
[Do You Think You Are Strong?] no
Who Are The People You Care Most About?:] relatives, friends.

....

now waiting in camp for the farewell dinner of 1 PDF. sheesh stuck because i'm in the traffic control and cleaning up party...

2hrs b4 the function and now it's raining cats and dogs. bravo....juz great. it doesn't help to mention that my position would be at the gd rm and the function ends at 10++pm.

well..pray that the rain stops soon. now back to waiting.

Bracers...GONE! MUHAHAHA!

Finally took off my bracers! haha...feels strange that my teeth is one smooth surface now. Guess that's wat happens with prolonged use. come to think abt it....wow...i've worn them for 7 yrs...with 1 yr break in between..so 6 years then. well..back to getting use to normal teeth again.

damm...trying to download a song...i dun know the name...juz using imesh guessing the name of the song and trying my luck. so far no luck. ARGH!

man...juz wish a fire would break out in the office now. the amt of shredded bags of papers we have now...50? going to break my back carrying them to the dump even if we indent a vehicle... *groans*

hmm..christmas is coming again. oh well time to get pple's address and start the usual stuff again. think i will skip out the gang. Those buggers...knowing them they will probably juz toss the cards aside. haha. wouldn't waste good cards on them. come to think abt it...do they deserve cards in the 1st place? hahahahaha!

well..guess it's once again the usual group of pple, probably mostly girls again. Then again...if i kick the gang out of the list...heck all the cards would be going to girls. Can't be helped then. Oh man..this makes me sound like some kind of jerk that's forced to write to girls. haha. Sheesh so much trouble for girls. I've said it a thousand times and i will say it again. Girls....nothing but trouble. *haha...there goes my chance of finding a girlfriend*

Light at the Tunnel!

Noticed i've been complaining+ whining at the army way way too much!
so i guess i might as well look on the bright side of life there ya? *pukes*

by end Dec, i would've served a whole yr in Army! ya! 1 yr 4 months more to go then! 3 months if i take my month of leave! hahahaha!

going to a new unit by next week..would be very interesting since my old boss would be there.alrdy hearing things like "oh..u r that victor...our S3's favourite." Bde life would be more interesting i guess. backstabbing, set ups etc etc...some true excitement! Good thing i know most of the pple there pretty well. Then again their fair face might hide a foul heart. At least i would've enuff time to go to the gym and exercise once more! been growing fat!!! argh!!

let's see...managed to get xcused gd duty for 2 wks! abt time! there's nothing holding me back now. my good friends are being posted out, no regrets in skipping duties now. Do i care abt the current pple doing duties now? no! i dun give a damm!

Minus all the duties i've been doing...my life's been pretty good. Good Chief clerk, companions, overall pretty decent bosses except my Major Mario. Good working hours, despite the occasional staying back late stuff. Guess i should be grateful huh?

Exhausted!

This must 've been the most single extremely exhausting week i've ever had in my whole life. Literally cleared up the whole 'strong' room and office of all the documents.

It's like the week b4, we were clearing most of the confi & below documents which included booklets etc etc to recycle them in this industry plant. Must've been tons? no lah, most likely abt 300-500kg worth of stuff we cleared.

anyway juz cleared abt 36 bags of shredded paper this 4 days. been working OT...blah! the paper dust....phew! + office is in a whole mess now..haha! nvm lah, closing down anyway. if u added the trash we recycled and converted them into shredded bags of trash, probably would have at least 200 bags.
*note* some of the docs were even older than me! haha! saw a 1979 one. and 1 in mar 1985.