You know u need to get a girlfriend when your parents and relatives start asking on how come Victor doesn't have a girlfriend yet.

Of course this could be due to the fact that my bro is going to get married next year, AND i'm the only cousin (of acceptable age) that doesn't have a girlfriend yet. I suppose such things can't be rushed. I swear i will get one during my 4 yrs in SIM. (this doesn't mean that i will find one in SIM)

Sigh...wasted so much time in wild goose chases. Guess i'm like the rest of the club. A bit humji! haha. INEXPERIENCE in dating too i guess.

On happier notes: I've bought a new pair of working shoes and sports shoes. Small feet causes great problems. Especially now when i have the insoles to put inside my shoes. Oh ye lucky pple with normal feet size, how i envy u.

Oh well, i've gotten over the many faults God placed in me.
a) Short height ( gotten used to that eons ago)
b) Very small feet (still whine abt it now and then)
c) Tight leg muscles causing intense pain when running/walking long distances. Basically it's stretching the leg muscles (like a rubber band). I'm envious of pple who can run w/o feeling the pain. I wonder how that feels like, to be able to run for over 2km w/o pain.

Well those are the small permanent problems that will always trouble me. *shrugs*

One of the most bitter pills i've to suffer in my life is having such small feet. I've always envy pple who can walk into shops and there's 100% or even 50% chance of having the correct shop size waiting for them.

Yes, i know this puts me being jealous/envious of around 50% or more of the world population.
I'm pretty sure these pple are ignorant of having the pleasure of walking into a shoe shop, pick out a nice nike/reebok/ addias/converse shoe and buying it after trying it out.

Me? I go to shops after shops, spend months looking for a shoe size to fit my feet (22cm to be exact. that's like a size 5). How i thought the problem was solved when the papers advertised custom-made shoes a yr back or so. Sighs...false hopes and despair resulted. Those customised shoe shops only made female shoes. 4 of those shops advertised admitted to that after i called them.

Some pple ask me why I'm wearing the ugly/ not that comfortable sport shoes bought in the Emart in camp. The reason: They were the only one with my shoe size at that time. Argh!!! The number of times I've been to a sports shop, seen a shoe I like, but immediately know there would be no size for me. How pitiful and pathetic it is.

Damm it!! Why's every custom-made shoe on the web meant for only ladies? I'm sure there are more pple like me. WHERE DO WE BUY SHOES CUSTOM MADE FOR MEN!!??? Fuck it!

What defines one as a Christian? Of course being baptised is a confirmation. But how abt pple like me who hasn't going to church for like yrs and yrs and yrs?

I guess one can call me a sceptic Christian. I believe but don't really believe at the same time. U know the usual questions like Why's there so much hatred and death and problems in the world etc etc.

But I do pray every/every other night. Usual stuff, keep friends/family safe/happy etc. Maybe I shld pray to be happy myself. It just might work. Somehow I think I was never really meant to believe in 1 faith. I might not be like Hx who would/and have argue with pastors/monks/converts, but I do habour doubts at times. ( typical pple the religious encounter everytime).

Religion is all nice, promote peace, trust, faith in one another and in one's Deity/God/. I respect that. (i'm tolerant of other religions). Anyway it's almost Xmas. Head being muddled with all the Xmas songs. Hence the talk abt religion i think.

Happy Early Xmas to my friends and readers, since i don't think i would be blogging on xmas after all.

I've just borrowed a book from Meiting on Wednesday. An very interesting and most engaging book. It actaully took me 2 full days (abt 10hrs of continous reading) to read it finish. Interesting, considering the fact that i can usually read finish books in abt 5-6 hrs, (which i did with the previous latest fantasy book i rented).

Found out something abt my reading speed: The more entertaining the book the faster? i read it. As in sitting on the sofa for 4-5 hrs at a stretch and ignoring necessities at times like lunch, water/food etc. Fantasy books are the types which i read the fastest. Others i tend to read at a slower pace.

Of course I read books fast because of my speed reading i guess. I can sort of read whole sentences at 1 glance. I miss out on minor details though. Hence i've to re-read the books 2-3 times. Minor details usually mean the town's name? some minor character's name etc.

Thank god for 2nd handbook stores. Can just rent the books and return them. Read finish the latest Artemis Entreri/ Jarlaxle Baenre book in 4hrs.

Anyway had an enjoyable dinner/desert with Meiting. Haha..didn't know she was a vegetarian. Luckily ate at a food court which had a vegetarian stall. All in all, a fun day. Like i said b4, girls are more interesting to go out with other guys (DUH! for obvious and not so obvious reasons)

12.37am. Time to sleep. Later on at 9am there's NBA.

Feel tired...too much dota not good for health. Last few dota games b4 my Univ term starts. I will make a promise to myself.

NO DOTA WHEN MY TERM START IN JAN 07!! Except during maybe saturdays. It's going to be study study study. I will be a shu zhong. a bookworm. I shall devote myself to the mastering of my books, notes and the english language/literature.

I've alrdy roughly planned my schedules. Morning wake up, go library for research. Then come back after lunch. Rest for a short while, read notes, have dinner, go for my lectures/tutorials at night.

I shall stand firm. Wouldn't be like gh who said will quit dota, but *thinks of the every weekend dota playing* bleh.

Let's see how long i can last. Shld be no problemo at all i think. Maybe I will keep my WC3 CD away. *hands twitching from withdrawal symptons alrdy* haha.

The Cheong Family has produced yet another genius. My little cousin has done outstandingly well in his PSLE! Score? I don't know. But I heard he has been offered the ACS(I) 6 yr study programme. So i guess it's been pretty good.

My uncle and aunt must have excellent genes. Everyone of their 4 kids are all smarty pants. Of course they have nurtured their children with great love and peace and harmony in the family. If only I could say the same of my own. Everytime I see my uncle being so kind and in sync with his children, i can only sigh and wonder at the possbilites if things were different.

But God? Fate? has tossed my bro and I such a way of life, and we can't really do a thing abt it. Where what should be love and care, there's only an abiding hatred. Slow and continously growing but always kept under control. Cold indifference is our attitude, be grateful it doesn't warp to something else.

Of course Victor has a very good personality. I've been praised as the most loving and big hearted amongst all the grandchildren in both side of the family. I wouldn't eat u..come to uncle victor. hohoho! Thing i took that particular trait from my mom.

Isn't it strange how such intense hatred and great kindness/genoursity co-exist? Such is the way of life. It doesn't mean I like the way it has turned out though.

Almost a week since Master Victor became Slave Victor when my maid was given leave to go back to her hometown for 3 weeks. Of course there's always a possbility that she will run away, forcing my family to find a new replacement.

Oh well, until she comes back or a new maid arrives, it's up to Butler Victor to
a) wash the dishes
b) mop the house
c) water the flowers ( thank god it's been raining for the last few days)
d) make the bed
e) help out in the cooking (i volunteered for this, but my mom seems reluctant to have me help out)

Ah I know what most of my friends are thinking. Victor doing household chores? IMPOSSIBLE! He's a pampered child etc etc. Well, YOU THOUGHT WRONG BUGGERS!!!! Victor does have the knowledge and ABILITY to do the various chores that's supposedly done in a house.

For potential wives**, (okok i know it shld be for the potential WIFE, but a guy can hope right?) VICTOR can do household chores! A good point/merit for a husband. Interested parties leave a note in the comments section. Will diligently check my blog for the next few days.

I've realised why I've started to blog more often. After JC, there's been very little time to practise writing essays or whatever stuff. Blogging, while not as good as pure good JC essay writing, it is at least some sort of writing or rather in this case a form of typing.

I've noticed a marked decreased in my spelling (swap spell as swarp) and pronunciation of certain words. Then again pronouncing words have always been a trouble for me, since i can't pronounced the letter "r" properly.

Learnt quite a bit from the grammer books i've been reading. But there's still a lot to learn. I must do more.